Pain

2010
02.02

This is a piece that I wrote for a post on Black Woman Lost & Found. The topic was pain, and this was my contribution:

Still dragging the bag hand cuffed to the handles…
The previously scheduled elation has been canceled
Let fears and worries start as advertised on the handbill…
Enjoy the hand that’s ripping through your chest
twisting and tugging on your mind at rest
Arresting your thoughts as you climax
an orgasm of tears splash…
Drop your head into that cavity that remains
Hope and pray into that hollow space
let the tremble of your words echo back in that annoying way
let the knives of empty verbs slice your soul to shreds
Bleed those silent screams and let the agony possess you
now drop yourself into that bath of sorrow and escape from bliss
and multiply your problems like Stripe or gizmo, gremlins in liquids
take a sip, pop a pill, numb the sting of that chainsaw ripping you to bits…
Sleep it off, get lost in limbo and wake up to its kindred
stay despondent, but don’t dare respond to it…
pain…

Measuring Stickz

2010
01.22

THe only person that can kill me is me
every body else is a release eternally
Or are we eternal already?
I stay steady in my thoughts
painstakingly stalking the greatest brought
I’m far from a fool, but not much less
down by the cycle and the spiral
were we successfully fall
and then we fall into success
fall
and success
fall and success
after awhile I simply suggest
like a suspect statement
put a pause on the stress
an outlaw in the west
possibly a priest in the east
forcing myself daily to war with the beast
trust me when I speak
the prisons ain’t got shit on the streets
and although I’m crazed by the boredom
I must admit
the streets ain’t got shit on the boardrooms

In Haiti Tonight:Troops, Telethons, and Land Theives

2010
01.19

“No empire foresees its tumble into time’s abyss. The Roman Empire didn’t. The British Empire once boasted that ‘the sun will never set on our glorious empire.’ It has set now, hasn’t it? I recently read a remarkable book about the six hundred years of the vast Ottoman Empire. At its apogee it stood as the mightiest empire on Earth; it conquered the eastern home of teh Roman Empire, the Byzantine capital of Constantinople with relative ease, and renamed it as Istanbul. Yet, this empire went out with a whimper, in a burst of familial madness, of men who became deadly to their families, and became, finally, irrelevant.

The lesson of history is inescapable – empires rise; empires fall. No empire lasts forever…”

–Mumia-Abu Jamal

As the mass hysteria over George Clooney teaming up with MTV to host a Haiti Telethon, or a telethon to raise money for the only country of Blacks in the west to overthrow slavery, I am unable to keep certain words off of my tongue. As 53 young orphans from Haiti land in Pittsburg today, and thoughts of many of the insightful bloggers that I follow on twitter begin to sound the alarm, worrying about the popularity that adopting a Haitian child may become, more words are begin to riot at the door of mouth. As 5,000 United States military troops descend on the earthquake ravaged nation by helicopter, I am left hopeless beaten by my own thoughts forming and congealing into audible vibrations.

The legacy of Haiti is that of a 50 year old Slave joining forces with a respect Voodun priest and galvanizing the slaves of that country to overthrow the French. T’ousaint was able to defeat, with the help of Dessalines, Napoleon. That is a major historical feat that doesn’t get much coverage in high school history books. The country would be cut off from any assistance by the United States in an effort to protect the minds of her slaves. The hope of Haiti wouldn’t be so compromised if Haiti received the help from Africa, as all of the west receives from NATO. Now, this once sparkling and shining country must deal with the threat of imperial control. In Haiti, at this moment, while you are reading this, Israel has high tech military tents set up. As mentioned earlier, the people of Haiti are cheering on military men with US flags on there sleeves. Now, I don’t want to offend my black servicemen, but hell, you all know, this situation reeks of a situation that will only end with Haiti becoming a territory of either the US or some other western nation.

Who is going to rebuild Haiti? How long will those troops be there? Who will speak for the Haitian people against those that public state they have donated money, but are only seeking to appear as charitable? Haiti didn’t have much before the earthquake, what makes anyone think that without a certain dependence on those countries now on the scene that Haiti will be able to rebuild? I am not being a pessimist here. I hate that term realist, so I’ll just say I have never seen it. Never. The United States is conquered land. Israel is stolen land. Two countries with great successes as land thieves and robbers have united to help a defenseless land. Right.

I’m thinking about christian missionaries that entered into various civilizations under the guise of “converting the heathens” and leaving…well, never leaving. Now, civilizing has become “democratizing” and “liberating” as we see in Iraq. And possibly will see after the United States stops killing thousands of innocent civilians in Afghanistan.As these christian missionaries built their temples on top of the temples of those they conquered, nations are built on top the ashes of those that were defeated. The Roman Vatican is itself said to have been built on top of the worshippers of Mithra. The work of the christian missionary in some regards is the mission of genocide. I look at the work of many who are now “assisting” Haiti in the same vein as many historians look at the christian missionary.

I pray that I am wrong in my thinking. I pray that my insanity is not due to my awareness of a world that considers the thoughtful crazy. I pray that my analysis of history is skewed in some manner. But ultimately, I’ll be alright, my thoughts are with the children and babies of Haiti tonight.

As always, I am J. Farand, the Owl of the Asylum. I thank you for reading this.

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